Mary J. Blige has just confessed that she owes her life to her fans.

The 50-year-old singer opened up to People about her previous struggles with her mental health – especially at the start of her career – and revealed that she even contemplated taking her own life.

However, the Grammy-Award-winning-artist credited her fans for quickly putting an end to her suicidal thoughts, because of their deep connection with her and her iconic 1994 album, My Life

“I think subconsciously, I was like, ‘Oh I can’t kill myself now. All these people, somebody’s going to come behind me,’ because people were too diehard and strong and emotional about this album,” Mary J. Blige said, in reference to her fans’ strong connection with her My Life album.

“So I believe in my subconscious, I was like ‘I can’t die now. I’ve just got to thug this out. I’ve got to push through.’ And so I just kept pushing and pushing, no matter how hard it got, no matter how ugly it got.”

Mary J. Blige also talked about the significance of her My Life album on Amazon Prime Video’s new documentary, Mary J. Blige’s My Life, which goes into more detail about her mental health during what she described as one of the “darkest times” of her life…

“My Life is probably my darkest album, at one of the darkest times I’ve had,” she says in the trailer for the documentary.

“Most of the time I just was just depressed and didn’t want to live. I didn’t know that so many people felt the same way.”

Although she is thankfully now in a much better place, the musician shared that it isn’t a coincidence, and she works very hard on herself to keep all negative thoughts at bay…

“It’s not as bad as it was, I’m in a great place,” she continued.

“But I have to fight for my freedom and my happiness every single day because that was some heavy imprisonment, you know?”

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