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Khloe Kardashian’s ex-husband and former MBA star Lamar Odom has opened up about his past – from his drug addiction to his countless infidelities – in his memoir entitled Darkness to Light.
“I am a sex addict,” the 39-year-old wrote in the memoir, as published by People.
“I have been obsessed with sex for as long as I can remember,” he added while admitting that he has slept with over 2,000 women, some of which were with women who received payment for their sexual encounters…
“There were too many strippers to count.
“It wasn’t a big deal, but often I would pay them. I never thought less of them.”
As well as the countless sexual encounters, the former basketball player also opened up about his addiction to drugs…
“I wish I could have been more of a man,” he said, in reference to the fact he hid his cocaine habit from Khloe Kardashian, as well as the many times he cheated on her.
“It still bothers me to this day. But regret is something we have to learn to live with.”
He went on to reveal that, although he and Khloe were madly in love when they first got together in 2009, things quickly spiraled out of control due to the pressure associated with being in such a high profile relationship.
“At the start of our marriage I was faithful to her,” he writes in the memoir.
“I could not handle the lethal cocktail of the spotlight, addiction, a diminishing career and infidelity.
“Oh, did I mention the paranoia, anxiety, depression. I couldn’t keep my d— in my pants or the coke out of my nose.
“Drug addicts are incredibly skilled at hiding their habit. I’d get defensive and Khloe would just drop it.”
In 2015, a year before their divorce was finalized, Lamar was hospitalized after a near-fatal overdose. Lamar talks about how Khloe was by his side the entire time, despite their relationship being over at that point…
“I remember waking up and her showing me pictures of my mother,” Lamar recalled, referencing his mother Cathy who died of cancer when he was just 12.
“I was surprised on how quick she was to show her devotion to me. Her love for me must have been unconditional.
“That’s the only thing I think that gave her the strength to still love me at that time.”
Despite everything that has gone on between them, Lamar still hopes that they can be in each other’s lives in the future…
“I hope we can be friends,” he added.
“I miss the family. And I hope we can all be reacquainted one day.”
We’re not sure what Khloe and the rest of the Kardashians would have to say about that…